Drifting Feeling

That twitch in the heart, 

That feeling of near ecstasy, 

Leaves one so close to him, 

Yet so distant. 

Of the life lived, 

Of the life desired, 

The feelings are so mixed up, 

As if juggling with uncertainty. 

He promises a better tomorrow, 

He promises all things lost, 

How do I give in ? 

How do I resist ? 

Life was never easy, 

It never promises to be, 

The pain that it leaves behind every moment, 

A life which was so full, 

Yet so incomplete. 

Now the flicker of hope, 

The feeling of near complete. 

Leaves me thinking, 

Will this stay ? 

Will it survive the day ? 

And then the night is sure to come, 

But can it stay for long ? 

If only I could make it linger, 

If only I could hold the thought, 

If only I knew a way, 

Things would be different. 

Far from a distance he calls, 

Looks promising you know ! 

But can I take the step ? 

Can I indulge in this moment ? 

I do know that he will hold, 

I do know he is here to stay, 

But can I take this step ?

Can I indulge in this beautiful moment ? 

I think to myself, 

This is what I always wanted, 

This is what I longed for. 

But that sparkle in his eyes, 

Makes me ponder, 

Can I take this step ? 

Can I hold onto this moment forever ?